Waiting on God has taught me patience and to be ready at any moment for Him to act. Every day I am here with my daughter in the NICU, I see God working in and through me, as I watch Him restoring people’s faith and comforting those who have never known what true love is.

On my morning visit to see Sydney, I found out that she did not have a good night and that she stopped breathing twice. The bad news never gets easier to hear, but I know that she is in the palm of God’s hand and that He will not allow anything to happen to her unless it is according to His will and He will not allow us to endure more than we can bear.

I trust in Jesus because He is my great deliver and I know that He is walking right beside me during this storm. I trust in my strong defender because I know when I can walk no further, He will carry me and be my blessed redeemer. On my own, I would be hopeless and lost, but by the grace of God, I have peace that God is in complete control. There is no other way I could walk through this without complete faith in God’s sovereignty. Daily, my faith is being tested and ultimately strengthened and in our times of need, the best thing we can do is draw near to God; He in turn will draw closer to us.

Our faith is our trust in God, especially when things don’t happen according to our plan. He alone is the great physician and He is the Lord who heals. I am choosing to walk by faith and not by sight, even though I do not understand why this is happening. We want to take our baby home so bad and seeing other people taking their newborns home is becoming increasingly hard to watch, but I know God is accomplishing more than we can imagine. Our tests and challenges refine us and reveal what is in our heart; if it’s God, we will find peace, but if it’s anything else, we are missing the greatest comforter who exists. Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, so I encourage you to taste and see how good the Lord is. His way is perfect and His word is proven. He is a shield to all who trust in Him and when we pour our heart out to Him, He will be a refuge for us.