I am a fixer by nature, so when things are out of my control, it is sometimes very hard for me to deal with. This is an area of my life that God has really been working on and the last few days He has reminded me that I am still a work in progress. For me, being stumped, outsmarted or perplexed is a rarity, but it is also a necessity in my life so I don’t forget that I am not meant to know it all nor do it all. However, knowing this does not always help in making these occurrences any easier to swallow.
Not knowing what to do is hard, but knowing what to do and not being about able to do anything about it is even harder. Right now, there are a few painful realities I am having to walk out; ones in which if given the chance I would gladly bestow complete and perfect healing upon myself, my wife and my daughter, but I know that to be God is more than just saying yes to every wish, hope and prayer. I can only imagine how much the Lord’s heart breaks while He watches His children in pain.
Driving home the other day I caught a glimpse of the pain God feels for us as my heart literally broke for someone I did not even know. At a stoplight, I watched a young lady in front of me weeping uncontrollably. Immediately, I began to feel the pain in her tears as I began to cry. While I interceded on her behalf, I could only hope that she had a relationship with the Father and that He would reach down into her life and comfort her in this time of despair. Even though I had no idea what was going on in her life and that there was no way I personally could fix anything; I knew the One who could. His name was Jehovah Shalom; the God of peace, his name was Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides. The God we serve is the Great I Am and no problem or trial we ever face is too big for him. I cannot even fathom how much his heart breaks for all of us because seeing one person in anguish who I didn’t even know brought me to tears. He holds the whole world in His hands and one day soon He will wipe ever tear away from our eyes and death shall be no more, there will be no more heartache or pain and all we will know is joy and peace. I don’t know about you, but I cannot wait for that day, but until then I will put my hope and trust in the Lord!